New Testimony

I have gained a humongous new testimony that God and Christ live and that they are always there for me. I started gaining it the last week before mom and dad came home from general conference when the Van Ormans had to leave me on Tuesday. Sister Van Orman had something wrong with her ear and had to go to the states for surgery; even though I knew the reason and how sad they were to be leaving, Satan was making me feel horrible about myself in thinking that no one wanted to be around me. Elder Van Orman then was totally inspired by Heavenly Father to give me a blessing that I'd be able to get through the week school-wise and in any challenges that i might face from the day to day. Heavenly Father took my by the hand that week and helped me through MANY challenges. But then Sunday Satan tried to strike again when i was sitting through the meetings (esp the beginning of sacrament, when i was by myself on the back bench) and i had horrible worryings and imaginings about mom and dad--that they wouldn't come back safely;the plane would crash;they'd be in a car accident coming home or to church;that they didn't even want to come back to me;would take as long to come home as possible;would rather stay in the states or travel the world than come back to me. Heavenly Father gave me peace though letting them walk in as the sacrament was being passed. Before and after bearing my testimony, i hugged mom and dad and cried.

The testimony gaining has continued as I have begun to feel lonely at school (many friends move to different groups, tease me excessively or just make me feel unwanted) and pressured by different classes or responsibilities. Today it kind of came to a climax in sacrament meeting as i was tired from the night before (I babysat from 7 pm to 12:30 pm and upon getting home I still had dishes and minor things to do before bed, so i ended up sleeping around 2-2:30) but then i was also feeling isolated from the other kids in the ward (american and brazilian) and just plain crummy. Mom wanted to stay for a baptism right after church and i grumbled, wanting sleep and food and feeling generally victimized by fate. Then my righteous side slapped me back in the face for feeling so rotten about staying for an event that is supposed to be joyful and wonderful. I also felt guilty because the 12-year-old girl that was getting baptized with her family (an older brother also in the young men/young women, a sister in primary and her parents) had walked by and smiled at me, but i was angry and decided to ignore her. As she continued to pass, I saw her face fall and started kicking myself for my stupidity. I wanted to be cheerful for this event but i realized I needed help--which drove me to kneel behind the curtain of the stage in prayer and ask Heavenly Father to forgive me for my faults (lack of willpower to stay awake during sacrament meeting, getting angry at mom for not letting me sleep during sacrament meeting--Flash strips!--and my idiotic allowance of those angry un-Christ-like feelings stiking out at innocent people who are having the best moment of their lives today) and to help me get my issues together enough to feel the Spirit during the Baptism and to give me comfort throughout this week and the rest of the day. When I re-entered the chapel, God inspired Adam Richardson and his sister, Clara, to come and lift me from the bottom-less Pit of Dispair I was in. We talked, joked and laughed, lingering on essential topics like the amazing-ness-nicity of American food and how much we missed it and yet how much healthier we probably were without it, and adventures our families had to take being huge. We were then joined by Laura and Isadora (two Brazilian young women who are amazingly cute and annoyingly petite) who mainly listened to our conversation and laughed at the hilarious expressions Adam made when he talked about French Toast with Nutella and Peanut Butter. I felt bad about not speaking Portugese with them but they wanted to listen to our English and see how much they understood.

I don't know what/if I'll have trials this week or in the future (though i probably will--DUH T~T) but i know without a doubt that I'll be able to get through them if I'm walking with Heavenly Father, Jesus Christ and the Holy Ghost. Thanks for being there, family. Loves.

WISH LIST of the OMEGA---the joys of christmas

okay, the moment you've all been holding youre breaths for: EMILY'S WISH LIST!!
its surprisingly short this year--im very proud of myself:
1. iTunes credits
2. clothes (cute please)
3. books (anime/manga, adventure)
4. art supplies (sketch book, colored pencils)
5. a check for 60, 70, or 80 dollars
NOTE: the ones in bold are highly desired. XD

Embarrasing Performance

well, the play went well. i got many compliments, made many people laugh with HODEL'S witty sarcasm and stunned everyone who knows me with my awesome singing abilities!! i used the performances and practices as my individual worth value project. but i am paying the price now; William's mom is calling me her daughter already and the other youths who saw the play are calling me sister richardson. its pretty sad................-_-; but whatever, it was fun!

Player #3 VS Perchik

Mei-day! Mei-day! Perchik (dear William's role in Fiddler) is plumeting through the boy toy collection of Hodel (me)! i am sorry to announce but Will is gaining a rival in my affection/attention these days--and for good reasons! 1. it takes way too much effort to get Will to talk/open up and he doesnt seem to keen to talk to me when i make an attempt at civil conversation. (he almost makes a face like this: O__o) 2. There is someone more interesting in my own grade who is more interesting and definetly easier to talk to: Alberto Saraiva. He's one of the starters on the Boys' Varsity Basketball Game and hes in a lot of my classes. And to avoid making the older brother participants of this website gag, i wont be going into anymore detail about this subject. XD If the women want any of the gory details, they'll have to call/email/contact me themselves (sorry).

To Be or Not To Be?

Amazing news!! There is love in the air with the arrival of new mormon families!
One of the new mission presidents has a son in 11th grade, William Richardson who is awesomeness-amazing! He teases but never goes overboard, he is a good older brother to his 3 little siblings AND (most importantly) HE CAN ACT!!!!! He and i both went to tryout for the school musical on the same day and one of the things we did was read lines for Hodel and Perchik from Fiddler On The Roof. There was instant chemistry. so after the tryouts went so well i was mucho desireous to acquire the rollage i wanted not only because i liked the part of Hodel in itself, but because i knew that if he got the part of Perchik, i'd be able to get to know him better during practices. And i guess this is a match made in heaven because he got the part of Perchik and i got the part of Hodel!! dont worry though dad and mom because i promise to bridle my emotions until im 16. Standards first, then fun!! ;D

Among Other Things, I Just Want to Say: LOOK OUT STEPHANIE MEYER!!

hello again, dear fam! sorry its taken me so long to update the day in the life of the omega but i needed something interesting to write about! and now i actually have a nice little stack of things you might want to know about:
1. i was sparred a trip to menaus(sp?) because dad forgot i needed i.d. and i dont make a habit of carrying my student i.d. to anywhere but the movies (where you get a discount!)...of course, i was terribly heartbroken to be denied such a fun trip to a humid bori--i mean INTERESTING place....but i lifted my spirits with playing the piano (i have a couple REALLY fuol (fun+cool) new songs and i L-O-V-E my teacher) and, like all other teens, the computer!!:D
2. since i didnt go to menaus, i get to spend more time w/ christa and her mom, grandma, and sisters!! tonight, we went and got pastays and they laugh at alot of the things i say, which is always a sign of friendship--they're laughing WITH me and not AT me....i hope! XD
3. and finally, returning to the title, i've got a new project!! its my latest work in writing and i hope it turns into my first novel!! i got the idea for the book from a dream i had about a week or two ago and developed it into a full story! my friends always tease me about any book-ideas i tell them about because i used to get so many and i never stuck with one.....BUT this time, im serious about it!! i even made maps of the world, kingdoms, the capital city of the main kingdom, and i made profiles of the main characters(which also need more work)! there are still many loose ends, i know, but its still a work in progress and i will stick with it!! if anyone has questions about it or wants to see the maps and/or profiles or anything concerning the book, i will have everything on the cruise!

My First Jobs and Other Amaxing Facts

hello, my darling familia!!
guess what?? i know ive kinda been a little distant and vague with the info on the latest in the life of a teenage aunt/vet/explorer/actress/author so just to pacify all yall, here's some up-dates.
first, i have several job options!! the most recent one (and definately the most profitable) is an offer for me to read for this lady whos making books on cd's for brazilians to learn english. it was kinda funny because she would switch from portugese to english randomly during the conversation--it took all of my ninja lang. skills to keep up with her. and she's offering 50 reais an hour!!!XD please, dont be jealous..;D the other ones are the normal baby-sitting jobs from ward families with munchkinies and the almost constant possibility of becoming a dog-walker with the thousands of dogs skippin around our complex. i dont know how much the later jobs will pay but they're better than nothing--especially since i want to get some of my own pocket money for clothes and movies and other teenage nessecities.